interesting video. nov. 23 (2010) will be my 1 year anniversary since my last shock treatment. I had over 80 of them. what initially encouraged me to try ect was not only my desperation and constant suicidality but also the TED video from sherwin nylund.
my depression has returned since having the treatments. i have had significant memory loss, and not all of it has been “short-term.” i couldn’t read for a very long time and all of my “rote” stuff had disappeared. I couldn’t drive, and I still have problems with directions and maps.
recently, because my depression has worsened again, my shrink has suggested more ect. my husband has said he will go to court to avoid it. he said he is afraid that i will be so lost i will not come back (this time).
if i was in that position several years ago, would i choose to start ect again? i honestly don’t know. i lost a lot of memories, and, a lot of friends who couldn’t handle that i didn’t remember X or Y.
my greatest fear was always that the drug wouldn’t work and somehow i would be wide awake and trapped during the procedure. it never happened, but i never stopped worrying that it would.
People often fear the anesthesia, fear they won’t be gone before the treatment. It never happens but it’s still frightening. Also enjoyed the video by Nylund. Sorry to here your depression reappeared, take care, Dr Shock
November 14, 2010 @ 12:23 am
interesting video. nov. 23 (2010) will be my 1 year anniversary since my last shock treatment. I had over 80 of them. what initially encouraged me to try ect was not only my desperation and constant suicidality but also the TED video from sherwin nylund.
my depression has returned since having the treatments. i have had significant memory loss, and not all of it has been “short-term.” i couldn’t read for a very long time and all of my “rote” stuff had disappeared. I couldn’t drive, and I still have problems with directions and maps.
recently, because my depression has worsened again, my shrink has suggested more ect. my husband has said he will go to court to avoid it. he said he is afraid that i will be so lost i will not come back (this time).
if i was in that position several years ago, would i choose to start ect again? i honestly don’t know. i lost a lot of memories, and, a lot of friends who couldn’t handle that i didn’t remember X or Y.
my greatest fear was always that the drug wouldn’t work and somehow i would be wide awake and trapped during the procedure. it never happened, but i never stopped worrying that it would.
November 14, 2010 @ 2:45 pm
People often fear the anesthesia, fear they won’t be gone before the treatment. It never happens but it’s still frightening. Also enjoyed the video by Nylund. Sorry to here your depression reappeared, take care, Dr Shock